I AINT NO HOLLA BACK GIRL...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!



So its been a while eh? YEAH IT HAS! nothing too much has changed... I did have a boyfriend for over a month, but we're just not seeing the same page... kinda sucks but i guess live goes on...

I'm still working at mama's.. BLAHH... haha. ALMOST 2.5 years. crazy i know it.

My family and I are getting along great. it's nice to actually feel my age. i feel old. ha.


i did get my hair done for a christmas present to myself. its brown red and a couple blonde streaks. yay.

its real dark compaired to what i normally have.. lol...


Gosh i used to be able to sit here and just talk away, but honestly i don't know what to say? I'm still the same ole Chasitie... nothing drastic has happened to my life

I did get a TV and a DVD player for christmas though. woohoo.. guess that's cool. i'll be movin out soon so thats one less thing i'll have to worry about acutally havin to buy! YAYEE!!


Ok, well its almost 1am and im tired..


i love you all

Chas

Oh how its been a while, sorry. Life has been great-


I am totally all about this boy names Casey. oh wow. thats all i have to say...


i turn 20 tomorrow!!! score.



So i finally started making enough money at Mama's that i'll be working there the rest of my life... or atleast thats how it looks...




My FAVORITE manager-Joe, passed away saturday night... due to cancer. I love you Joe, and You will be missed extremely. You're in a better place now, no more suffering! Always smile-thats what you used to tell me.. RIP



Gosh, i'm so sad. His memorial is thursday. :(


Well i honestly dont have much to say, i mean, so much has happened to me, but i cant even begin to explain it. Life for me is finally happy. SCORE...


talk to you laters

Chasitie

Hey rian, no i havent been to hobby lobby in months.. LOL love you girl!!


anyways, im drunk at a friends house...yay... lol




so whats new? Me...STARTED DATING YAY




other than that...bartending and waiting tables...oh, i made a 100 on my first test. yay...



welllllll i must go, this isnt my comp and i just wanted to say hellllllo



xoxo
Chasitie

Howdy people! whats goin down. So its pretty hard to update this dumb thing as much as i used too. School and work is getting crazy. today is saturday, and i actually am off tonight. I had to trade so im stuck working a double tomorrow. 7am to 11pm. Kinda sucks.. but its money.


IM 20 NEXT MONTH

So Last Saturday-Laura and I went to cowboys for the hell of it, and ended up at this party with one of my ex boyfriends. Had a good time, 4am came along and we were ready to go home. One problem...i couldnt find her. i looked for like 30 mins, some guys said she left...called her a slut, yadda yadda...i was pissed almost called the cops. yeah it was horrible. all in all, i found her 2 hours later and she wasnt breathing... she had alcohol poisioning... I got her back on her feet after we talked to the cops...i ended up busting my tire on my way to pick her up, so the guys who had her helped me and were very nice. got into bed around 8am...went to work at 3:30pm. it was a horrible day. lol...

School has been going really well, im enjoying it very much!

Nothing new has really been happening, just working and school, and going out like once a week. i've cut out a LOT of my partying, and its actually not that bad at all. i miss my friends, but you learn to just make new ones-lol-


Well i have family coming into town tonight so i need to finish getting dressed and what not...

mom is being a MAJOR bitch...house has to look perfect-she woke me up at 9am after getting to bed close to 4 from my back getting all fucked up. so im pissed-


oh yeah-im moving in Jan! who wants to help?!!



Love you!
Chasitie

Hey hey!!


Today was my first day back at SCHOOL! oh how i LOVE my schedule. I have one class every mon. wed. fri. LOL. i get outta school at 10am! YAY. So i actually can have a dating life before AND after work!

I managed to get a cold over the weekend. wanna know how? TOO MUCH Work! not enough SLEEP.

Friday night i closed, didnt get out til 1am. Sat. I had to open. i was at Mama's at 6:30 AM and didnt get out until 1am. LAME. then..I was back up there sunday at 10:30am, and didnt get home til midnight. Let me tell you. I've never been so tired, but i made 400 dollars, and thats all that matters. School is paid, along with my car and cell! WOOHOO. now i'm just saving for an apt. and other goodies.

I'm actually getting used to going to bed at a decent hour, SOBER. its kinda nice. Laura and I have our ONE night of drinking, which is thurs. We call it, Malibu Thursdays. Lol. We make a couple mixed drinks with the malibu-then head to cowboys, and i'm in bed by 3am. yay for me. other than that, i just work, and go home like a good little girl :)

So, this guy i work with, he is my BESTFRIEND... i love him to death, i really do. Well i found a hickie on him and it really upset me! I dont want anymore than just a friendship with him, so why am i jealous? Maybe its time for me to actually attempt dating, and not be so scared about the shit. I'm ready to be happy, fall in love. I miss being in someones arms. :(

I get paid tomorrow! I should have a nice fatty check cuz i worked 31 hours of over time, along with the 24 hrs from the week before. I'm excited... REALLY excited.


Bartending is quite fun! the only downfall is the AC in the bar is NOT WORKING. so its uber hot. kinda sucks, but tips are still great :)


Well guys, i'm going to Download Trillian back on my computer! Love you guys!!



XOXO
Chasitie

Hey guys! Long time no see!

Life has been great.

School starts REALLY soon-couple days. i'm excited!!!!

Work is going great. i FINALLY became bartender! SCORE. i get monday night football! how CRAZYYY! lol..

My bestfriend moved to Cali this past Wed. :( How sad. I'm uber depressed, but i know she'll have a great time and cant wait to see her in Dec!!


So, work- i've been makin about 600 a week, not including my check. everythings going perfect. i have enought money for my tuition, and a lil for myself. Jan comes around, i'm finally moving out with my girl laura. i'm excited.

So-Guess whos still on this sober binge. Yeah-me. I mean, i've had a couple here and there, but as for being waisted-nope. havent been there in a while!


So i'm on this new computer. i didnt even know we had one? LOL. i havent has the time to see this house cause i've been workin 60+ hours a week. YEAH. i'm tired. i'm going on my 3 weeks with out a day off. yeah, it sucks. lol. but its money honey!

I miss all my online buddies! I Was thinkin about Brent the other day-he called me a phyco. I'm not crazy, i SWEAR it. I Was just a drunk-thats all. promise! I have a great head on my shoulders-and learning from mistakes is what life is about! I'm extremly happy with myself, and i'm enjoying life as it is, even thought its just work and school-cause in the long run, i'll have something to look back at and say "Damn, i worked my ASS off for this" so yeah. i'm not a nut case. LOL.


well its almost 2 and i need to get ready for work! I've been letting my hair air dry..and it doesnt look too pretty. lol.


i hope i talk to you all soon



lots of love,
Chasitie

Ok, so i totally dont remember doing that last entry..

So, i did manage to fuck up my plan of drinking, DAMNIT. but i did have an awesome 4 day weekend..

Thursday, i did manage to get kicked outta cowboys, not only cause i was drunk, but cause i was a minor drinking.. fuck shit cock whore. LOL.

Friday, Sat, and Sunday was like a 3 day party at Derricks, cause he's leaving for 3 months, first 2 nights was smoking and drinking beer. UGH i felt so horrible waking up sunday morning, but i went ahead and went out like a dumbass AGAIN, but just drank wine. LOL whatta loser..


So i read Brent's journal today, i musta said some FUCKEDUP shit to him this weekend, and god i feel totally horrible. I've never felt so bad. ugh.

So after all this, I reallllly dont wanna go crazy like that anymore. my body HURTS..

I have worked out for 2 days in a row now! YESSS! im so totally going to get back into shape!

I have auditions all weekend, i'm pretty excited! i might have to miss work tho, which sucks, but hey... it'll be worth it.

well me and my sore abs are going to watch more MTV then get in B-E-D


love you all,
chasitie

lol.... well on thursday i managed to get kicked outta cowboys... some asshole grabbed me by the arm and was telling me to get the hell outta his club cause i was too drunk but i kept saying "shut the fuck up, leave me alone.." lol

friday i went to derricks party and got a pretty good buzz oops

saturday, i smoked some GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD ass week and got the fuck high. it was badass

tonight... im at derricks house drinking wine getting giggly..lol

anyways.... u i made badass money this weekend..



lol okay, so i know i said that i was only getting drunk like 2 days this month, but i guess i lied... its day 4 annnnd im drunk again. but i mean, thats ok. when school starts, things will change when school starts, I SWEAR...buuuuuuut shit im 19, fuck it, right? LOL



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ok so maybe not? well ima go away now cuz i cant type while drinking wine, i'll talk to you all later





love ya,
chasitie

im so bored so i figured i'd say WHATS UP!

Im sitting here talking to the love of my life Claudine!!! I MISS HERRRRR!!

So Jessica Simpson and I have chilled all night together. I love her. I could watch her EVERY second of the day...

my mom said i'm a carbon copy of her... lmao... i guess i'm dumb like that too sometimes? I Do own her dessert line-and i have a couple outfits that are like hers, cuz im gay and i HAVE to dress cute.... annnnnd i have a gold purse... i'm such a barbie- i just dont let anyone see that side of me.

I went to HS with this boy Joe-HOT ass boy! LOL.. and a great kisser. anyways, he moved away to AZ and i'm talkin to him right now. i miss him :( SO MUCH.. COME BAAAACKKKK he was so much fun! We got into a lot of trouble in the class we had together. LOL. GREAT times!

omg i'm so bored. i did a shit load of crunches, leg lifts..im about to get on the bowflex... haha i'm a loser and its only 1130pm. I WISH I HAD A DART BOARD!!


ok im boring myself. guys, enjoy my lame entry

Love you
Chasitie

Wow, my computer was doing some REALLY odd things just now. lol.

Anyways, today was a REALLY lazy day! I didnt really do too much... Woke up pretty late, somewhere around 10:30? Layed around the house, found the movie Coach Carter, popped in the DVD and sat there til it was over. That was a really good movie! Made me cry at the end! lol! OOPS! aw. Anyways, After that, i got into the shower, and headed out on my errands that i needed to run.. I threw 300 bucks into the bank. YAY.. and i get paid tomorrow, which should be close to 400 YAY (that includes my vacation pay...) so i'm excited. I need to pay for school soon, which is exciting, cuz that means i'll be ACTUALLY going to classes again, and i can not WAIT to start UTSA again!

So i'm listening to this Dance station on my DSL...it's pretty badass. I'm going to cowboys tomorrow night. LORD HELP ME... Laura wants to go tonight, but i was like nah, ladies night fool..wait. lmao. I havent danced in AGES, so i'm a little excited to step foot though the doors that i hate.

-see I'm not a club person anymore. i did cowboys ALL during my senior year, and even when there were teen nights, back when it was FAR WEST. WOW...

Today is day 4 of being Sober. Hell Fucking Yes. I'm actually liking this.. I wake up w/o a hangover. lol.

So i ate at whataburger today.. lol. i needed something fatty in my tummy. haha. Anyways, i saw SO MANY people i went to school with, and they are either married or prego. thats SO SAD. I'm glad i chose the college path. lol. Well i'm glad that i will ACTUALLY be going to classes this semsester and not fucking up like i did last. haha..

I was in Walmart today... I hate walmart. i REALLY do. they are so rude there! I hate how you see these commericals on walmart, and they're SO nice.. blah blah blah.. totally not cool.. So yeah, i'm in there today returning a fan my parents had bought over the weekend, and the lady is like, "I Dont belive that this doesn't work, I dont believe that its cracked. I'm thinking YOU did this" And i'm like "Look, I'm just bringing you this fucking thing, I wasnt home all weekend, I Dont need your crap." so i just walked away, leaving the box and i found a manager. GO me. LOL. all in all, I got the money back, and i refuse to walk into that damn store again. Like i said, I hate walmart. Lol...


Lets talk Jealous guys... If you see your girl hugging a FRIEND.. do you honestly BREAK up with her? or do you freak out and make this huge scene infront of everyone, make yourself look like an ass, then walk away from it all? LOl. I just saw something between both those lines happen to a girl across the street. poor thing. this boy is always following her home to make sure shes alone, THEN walks around her house making sure shes alone in the house. I mean COME ON... isnt trust the foundation of a relationship?


So this weekend is my friend Derrick's going away party, like i've mentioned before. Should i go? I mean, yes there will be drinking, and people smokin the goodens, but i mean, Seriously? Drinking one night this week going to harm me? NAHH.. so i'm going. LOL. I have been thinking about that ALL day. As long as i stay good up until Friday night... I'll be okay. Theres another party for MY BESTFRIEND on the 22nd, that i'm taking off of work for, so that we all can say our goodbyes, and drink margarita's all night. lol. So there, thats the only 2 days i'm allowing myself to get outta control and go CRAZZZZY drunk. If i do it other than those nights, please, YELL and BITCH at me. lol i'm giving you permission.

Welllllllllllllp,

I think i'm off to do better things with my life! (Eating dinner...) LOL. I'm kinda hungry even though i ate like 5 hours ago!

Call me if you need me guys!

I love you,
Chasitie

Work tonight totally sucked major donkey balls! LOL... On a normal tues night, there should be 6 servers, 4 on main floor, 2 in the backroom, then the bartender takes the smoking section. I had only 4 servers tonight... soooo i had to take my section AND the whole back room. i had 17 tables going on at once..annnd i almost went nuts. lol

So i did manage to make good cash tonight though. YAY....


Natalie, my bestfriend is leaving me in 3 weeks to go to cali. :( I'm so upset damnit! What am i going to doooooo?!!?!?! :(

I was supposed to go to fiesta Texas tomorrow, but since i have my bug bites, mommy said i shouldnt be in the sun cause they might spread. DAMNIT. lol. im still really itchy.... :(

I'm on day 3 of being sober. YAY FOR ME DAMNIT! Can i get a congrats here? lol...

Ok, well this is going to be a boring entry cause my lame ass wants to play with my new Yahoo! DSL. LOL... i'm such a computer nerd..



love you all
Chasitie

PS: I think im going to ashley's tomorrow and TRY To swim... and then we're gunna watch movies all day like we're 15...and cry over spilt milk :(! Being a woman is so much fun sometimes...

Lol, i'm one fucked up motherfucker man! I played in the dirt like a BOY and i shouldnt have! haha..

So today has been pretty exciting, worked out early this morning, layed on the couch and watched girlie movies- aww..

So i technically havent had a boyfriend since Hs. LOL. aw. I Dated Jeremy for 7 months, but we never really said we were "Boyfriend/Girlfriend" hmmmm maybe it was just fuck buddies? WHO KNOWS? whatever it was, it was good, real good. lmao...

Now i sit here in my towel cuz i just showered, and im thinking, God, i wish there was a man behind me, i miss the comfort of a guy. I miss calling someone everynight before i go to bed, just to say goodnight. I miss the hugs, and the kisses, and the cuddling. Going out to dinner, and seeing a movie. I miss the passion two people can have, the beer contests, (yes, i have fun too) giving massages, making them feel special. MAN how i miss being in a relationship. I miss being in love. The between the sheet action, so passionate, loving, caring, and at the same time, its the beast in you, that you can finally let out. I miss all that. Darn, i'm such a girly girl at times...

I want to get back into motocross. That was the shit. and it was dangerous and fun. lol


I got Yahoo! DSL Today.... yay? LOL. i totally forgot i even HAD a Yahoo! name... it's Chasalicious... Just like EVERYTHING else is. lmao. that's cool i guess?


I gotta be at work at 4. Not too excited. I'm STILL sitting in my towel, i don't want to move. My whole body is itching like CRAZY, Yeah, it's not too fun...I even have some on my chin, and like on my neck. how horrible. :(


Tomorrow i've got to get a new web cam, I need to update my pictures on FTJ and I wanna make a myspace account. I'm such a loser, but being on the computer is going to keep me away from partying. YAY for me!

Well folks, my naked ass needs to get dressed. lol.

Have a good night!
Chasitie

Today was a slow day..

Work was extremly slow. Horribly slow... and it was some REALLY cute fat guys birthday, so i gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek, and he never left me alone. whoops. haha. So, ya know how i went to the stupid woods this past weekend? well i think i got bit by something, and it spread all over my body- some others have it too. its like these lil red bumps allllllll over me.. and they itch. i dunno if i should see a dr, or just get benadryl and slap it all over myself... hmmm

Im scanning my computer for virus'.... not fun. blah.

so it's day 2 on this sober binge... annnd its not that bad. I'm really tired from all the drinking i did though, i hope it goes away soon.. my body is ALL screwed right now.

all my bruises are showing up all over my body from my accident. they look SO ugly :(... gosh sometimes i wish i was black so bruises wouldnt show. lol. haha j/k...

i'm going to the gym at like 7:30am. WOOHOO. I'm going with Jeanette- this girl i work with. she's so cute, and so badass. she's gunna be a teacher this fall :) YAY! and English teacher.. yeah-shes smart. lol.


So after getting out of bed at like 10ish i just layed on the couch til 2. i am such a bum, but i feel so horrible-and i don't know why. maybe im sick or something? :( since my legs are all full of ugly bruises, i dont feel like going out into public. haha. i'm such a loser when it comes to looks sometimes... haha...

I'm finally getting this whole dating shit down. DONT DO IT. IT'LL COME TO YOU. so we hope? haha. No, but seriously, people just try WAY to hard, and it never goes right. and I'll be the first to say it. I DO THAT. haha.. I'm going to teach myself to let things just happen on its own, and that'll start from me quitting the excessive drinking i do, cause no one likes that, college REALLY isnt about partying like i thought it was. lmao. seriously, i'd rather be studying anyways-i can't wait til school starts back up. I'm WAY excited!

well guys, i really dont have much else to type...

Lessons learned today:
-Never go into the woods
-STOP DRINKING EXCESSIVLY
-NEVER scratch a bite, they spread
-And, Never look for love, let love look for you :) My little saying ima tell myself EVERYDAY


I love you all,

Chasitie

So, Lastnight I just sat at home like a good little girl, did nothing and went to bed... YAY...

The bad thing is... I kept having the same dream OVER and OVER and OVER about how i couldnt breathe, someone was attacking me, and i couldnt scream...

I wake up today, and i have NO VOICE. What the fuck? So i grab my dream analysis book and start digging out info why i was dreaming this dream so many times lastnight...

I'm scared. aparently something in my head is scared. physically im not scared. i'm sore as shit. I've totally done messed up my sleeping pattern from stupid partying... I just want my voice back.. :(

So i'm sitting here watching Buffy (which i LOVE) and i'm like... Damnit, I'm TOTALLY like her. Inside i'm ALWAYS fighting the bad, but i always give in, ALWAYS. WHY? I wasnt like this until 6 months ago, maybe more... I can NEVER get in good with the boys, and if i do, its always some sort of drinking contests... GOD. it's SO CRAZY... I'm So tired of doing the same thing over and over and over. I REALLY AM tired of it. I know i've said this Plenty of times, but reallllly- I want to go back to school, i want to hit the gym up atleast 3-4 times a week, I want to get back into shape, stop this stupid nonsense life i've got going on, and do something with my life.

I got onto the scale today.. WOW I've gained weight. even my fingers are chubby! LOL. :( I did have a great time this past weekend, i honestly did, but the way i feel today, it's not worth it. this weekend is a going away party, and drinking is involved... i'm thinking about not going now... it really bothers me now... i seriously have no voice, im short of breath... did i stop breathing many times lastnight? :( who knows? I'm nervous now...


i gotta finish watching Buffy...she makes me calm..


i love you all,
Chasitie

Yes, that's right, i got LOST in the woods...

So, the weekened was fucking badass.. let me tell you...

Thursay-I went swimming at a friends house til like 4am... got home around 5. it was nice.

Friday...Slept til god, like 9, then spent the WHOLE day searching for cowboy boots.. never found any. DAMN! Went to work at 4-then after work, Me, Laura, Garland, Derrick, Adrian all headed out to a friends house and went swimming, then around 3am we all went out to this haunted abandoned village and drank beer and just hung out at this creepy house. it was REALLY cool. Left around 4:30 and headed for IHOP. 7am-went home.

Sat... woke up around 230ish... showered, went to work. After work, a HUGE group of us went BACK to the village-drank SHIT loads of beer.. LOL. i got lost in the woods for an HOUR. LOL. it was so creepy... this one house we all hung around... it was pretty odd. played drunk hide-and-go-seek in the house like dumbass' with our fucking 2 dollar flashlights. LOL. anyways, we had a good time, Laura, Derrick Garland and I all ate at IHOP AGAIN.. got home around 6am...

TODAY: GOD.. went to work REALLY tired.. talked about hanging out AGAIN in the woods..but no. are you kidding me? I've been drunk for 3 days in a row-lol so im sitting here at home like a good little girl... about to pass out cause i've been so fucking tired. laaame... haha.

well, love life is yet stopped at a HUGE fucking hault. haha. its okay tho. i need to have my fun with my friends right now. i'm young! :)

well thats all folks, ima go to BED.

love ya

Chasitie

Hey...

SO. Talk about ONE SHITTY DAY yesterday! All up until midnight was shitty! Work was HORRIBLY fucking slow, and Gosh, i dont know...

I will NO LONGER EVER date again. EVER. i HATE guys. TOTALLY hate them. I just need fuck buddies. I MISS SEX DAMNIT. LMAO...

SO I went to Ashley's house with a few friends lastnight, and drank a few beers... didnt even get drunk! YAY. so it's like almost 3am and Me and Laura are like DUDE lets go check out the haunted houses off of Evan's road... So stupid us, Me Laura, Garland, Derrick, Adrian, and Chris all went to check this shit out... well boys were smokin weed in the back of my car...and i kept to my cigs-i cant smoke weed... i drank a few beers on the drive out there... so i was pretty feeling good by the time we found this place. WELL my car can NOT handle going off the road.LOL it SUCKS. So let me tell you...these houses are SERIOUSLY haunted, theres blood all over the walls and shit.... We're checking out the slaughter house there tonight-if you wanna come! call me! it'll be scary and fun!!


well, thats all for now guys, i gotta go take a poop and get in the shower. lol...


love ya
Chasitie

SO, i've been sitting here on this computer since 7pm talking to Brent. Yes. I like him. I do. And i dont really want to say that, but we do nothing but TALK TALK TALK. I've NEVER done that with ANYONE..and i fucking love it. I've been single for 3 weeks-and its wayyy to early to jump into anything-so im totally not going to get involved-yet.or, i guess, just see how things go.. who knows?! I can say-I've changed the way i feel about men.

I havent been laid in almost a month.

And..i LIKE it.

I found out that my computer is swarming with virus' POS...

Me and Natalie want to start an advice colum in the paper... Sex in San Antonio... (Sex and the City) we LOVE... ha. now how exciting would that be?

I want to go back to colorado now...cept this time, with friends.


I am in love with LOVE.

is that...ok?




I get a new cell phone soon! NO MORE TMOBILE! YAYYYYY!!

So, i got to reading my old xanga journal... i was a fucking dumbass in highschool. like totally drama was the best thing ever. Are you kidding me? Wow. I wanted to kill myself. how lame is that? I LOVE my life as of now... there will ALWAYS be downs, but, life is too short... expecially to be that unhappy.


i'm finally getting my hair cut tomorrow. i'm excited. i havent touched it since feb. ew.. im getting my nails and feet all pretty too. im excited. THEN its off to work, and then over to Brent's place for a bit. I'm all booked for tomorrow. kinda excited!...i like him. shh... i really didnt say that again. lmao.


Well kids, i love you ALL very much, but this tired puppy has GOT TO GO.

See ya later gators

The one, the only...

Chasitie

hey hey! so today is my day offffff! SCORE...

anyways, so. finally got to see brent! totally awesome guy! He opened my beer for me! HOW SWEET. :)

Anyways.. hung out with natalie lastnight. talked for hours! ended up drunk by accident! lol. oops...


So, first day back to work was cool. it was a DOUBLE. worked another double tues too. lol. score. made pretty decent cash...i gues..


bought episode 2 & 3 of Newlyweds today. I LOVE Jessica Simpson...

i also bought ballerina shoes... and i LOVE THEM. lol. i was a dancer for 10 years... so i had to get them.

dad just made fresh guac. YUMMY. too bad i'm pissed off at him. My Family has decided to be complete BITCHES to me since i got back to work. wtf man. i spend a WEEK with them 24/7. DEAL WITH IT. Jerks.


So i started working out again. im cutting back on greasy foods and beer. YAY. I need to get back into shape and back into the dating scene (When the time is right of course...) I dont need to deal and stress over stupid Ex boyfriend. Lol.


Anyone have a baby puppy they wanna give me? I'm craving a puppy. i wanna name it..Lola. its so cute.


welllll ima go. im bored and i dont have anything exciting to say.


love you.

HEYYYYYYYYYYY! its JULY 2! lol. i just got back in town from colorado and new mexico! YAY! it was a BLAST! too bad it was only a week long! LOL. work starts back on MONDAY..and i work a DOUBLE! BOOOOOOOO! LOL!!!

So well shit... my last entry.. the day AFTER that, Jeremy and I got back together! it was totally perfect... TOTALLY perfect. until almost 3 weeks ago...he went out w/ his sisters on a tues. night- and i havent heard from him since. what the fuck you ask? shit...everyone who knows him is asking the SAME thing... including HIS bestfriend. no one knows... he's still alive. i know that! Lol. It hurts, but i got over it during my vacation...but hes so damn hot! and a GREAT sex partner! DAMN! :(

well god-so much has happened. over a month ago, someone broke into my car-they bashed out my entire back window-nothing was stolen. lol. retards. oh well...cops now watch my house. SWEET..including the camara's that i have around my house! YES!

someone i know that i used to work with told the ppl that serve me beer that im underage-got that covered..sort of... bitch. lol. too bad she JUST turned 21..so i could get her into trouble too.. but whatever, i dont care. i dont have to go to a bar to drink. i've saved much mulah without the bars anyways!

so i've yet to finish unpacking. its such a bore! i can't stand putting clothes away..

i still need to wash my work clothes from LAST friday...lol (June 25th) EW. haha...

Texas is SO hot. im not used to the heat yet..my heart is racing and my eye site is really bad... my glasses are making it worse. better take em off eh? lol. der chas.

Speakin of drinking.. i have been sober for 8 days guys! 8 days! GOOOO ME!!!

I'm DLin AIM again, and its taking FOREVER. fuckin A man! I NEED TO CHAT! I miss my friends.. lol.

Well guys, i promise i will try to update as much as i can... but its rare. haha..


love ya lots!!

Brent! We TOTALLY need to get together and hang out! no more phone convo's! OK!!! :)

Heyyyyyy!! so i had an exciting weekend... friday was typical karokee night... saturday was david's party.. partied til 6am.. yay!

anyways, thats nothing really too exciting is it? sorry.. lol

HEY congrats to everyone who is OUT OF HIGHSCHOOL! yay for you. TOO BAD I DID IT FIRST SUCKERS! haha! LOL

So lets talk about college. I'm attending UTSA AGAIN.. SCORE. i didnt think i could do it cause of my grades, but i managed to do it.. i'm VERY happy. and i will make my GPA a 3.0... NO MATTER WHAT!

So life has been pretty crazy since my last entry.. i spent last friday night w/ jeremy... i dunno, i havent seen him in 4 days and i kinda think i might like it? his bestfriend chris says we're just not ment to be. i agree w/ him totally... i did a LOT of thinking lastnight. i dunno, i know who i'm gunna marry already... haha i've known since i was what... 8? Lol.. I dunno, sudden instinct tells me i'm totally right about it.

Talked to scott today! for about an hour on the phone. we mad bets...I can out-drink him.. we'll seeeee! I WILL WIN SUCKER! :) haha. He calls me stupid now. Jerk! :) lol!I kinda liked it better when i was "baby" haha. but thats just me..

anywho.. today is my only day off of work. i'm sorta tired of working as much as i do. i enjoy laying on the couch watching my buffy..WHICH i saw the FINAL episode yesterday! HOW SAD! now its starting over! YESSSSSSSSS!! but I mean, I cant do this 6 days a week anymore. its killing me! I need to find more time to manage my own life let alone time to sleep for work!

So lets talk about hair. As you all know (those of you who have seen me...) my hair is getting LONG! i'm starting a poll... should i keep growin it? Or cut it again! I've come to the conclusion that no matter what i'm still gunna be bald soon cause of my stressful life.. haha.


So tonight is Judson's graduation.. I REALLY WANT TO GO! dangit! too bad u need tickets to go there. lame!


You know, I can't believe i'm actually typing in this damn Journal. I mean how many people ACTUALLY read these things? LOL many? I mean, sheesh.. Ok ok, i admit.. on days like this, i can sit here and read away.. lol. I am a loser at times! YAY... but mostly i'm the cool one!

WELL I am going to get the hell outta here...

much love to ya brotha!!

Chasitie